Relinquishing Control

I have a recurring dream. I had it again last night. In this particular version of it, our family was driving north. I looked around and suddenly became aware of the fact that we were headed near my inlaws’ home. I had the sense, somehow, that the family was along for the ride while my husband was doing business in the area.

I suddenly came up with the idea that after we dropped my husband off (where, I don’t know) that we should continue on to my inlaws’ and drop in for a surprise visit. I no sooner had this brainwave than I received a call from my own mother (at whose house we are currently staying) who announced that we should come back to her place to eat because she had prepared fruit for us.

I began to kick myself, “Why on earth didn’t I realize this was where we were headed so I could let my mom know there was no need to prepare a meal?” “How could I gracefully bow out of the fruit meal without upsetting my mother?” (Isn’t it great how logical and rational this all is?)

Suddenly, an even greater concern gripped me. I realized the car had no driver. I was in the back seat, and we were approaching an intersection.

Then I woke up.

The me-in-the-backseat-car-has-no-driver part is the part that recurs for me. Seriously, I have this dream a lot. The best thing I could conclude when I woke up, is I’m probably trying to work out some of the lack of control I have over several major aspects of my life right now.

Up until yesterday, because of some complications with figuring out the correct visas we need to apply for, and some fenagling we had to do to work around a national holiday and higher airfares, we didn’t even have flight dates.

But now we do.

JavaMan plans to go ahead of us to locate a suitable apartment and arrange for our things to be moved. The kids and I will follow three weeks later, in the hopes we have allowed him enough time to work out all the details so we have beds to sleep in and utensils to cook and eat with once we arrive.

This means the kids and I are leaving in:  [sct date=”3/13/2012 12:18″ align=”none” size=”1″]

Hurray!!!