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Still Thankful

April 2, 2012 by Carey Jane Clark

Note: A moving and personal review of After the Snow Falls posted today at The Musings of a Book Addict. I’d be honored if you’d take a look.

Okay, so not everything is going perfectly. Never happens to you, right? But in the midst of it, I’m still thankful. Thankfulness, in fact, is really the only way out of a funk, because a tub of chocolate ice cream will only end in regret.

I’m blogging in the middle of the night because my littlest one has been up and down for the last three hours, unable to sleep. This post will hit North America Monday evening, in the afternoon, but it’s already the wee hours of Tuesday morning here.

Sprout seems to have this problem when JavaMan is away. But I reminded her to capture the bad thoughts that are bothering her and put them in jail (our version of 2 Corinthians 10:5) and fill her heart and mind with praises. I heard her saying it out loud a few moments ago, and I think, perhaps, she might finally be asleep.

We all have struggles with focusing on the positive, don’t we? With keeping the necessary perspective? With capturing those bad thoughts and putting them in jail to let our thoughts be taken captive by the One who loves us best?

So I will continue to be thankful. I have so much to be thankful for. I’m counting to 1000 gifts along with Multitudes on Mondays:

200. The duvet. I know I mentioned it already, but it snapped cold again here over the weekend, and I am freshly thankful, especially since JavaMan is not here to warm me up!
201. The heater for the kids’ bedroom. So thankful JavaMan had the foresight to bring it. Who could have known we’d need it this long? It’s usually much warmer by now.
202.  A return to homeschool! We began again today. We started small–just History, Math and Chinese–but it was wonderful to begin again. I moved the heater upstairs and we huddled in our not-quite-organized cozy little homeschool room.
203.  Our children’s love of homeschool. Everyone was glad to get back to things. I asked Sprout to do one page of lessons in her Math-U-See Primer and she did nine with absolutely no coaxing! On Sunday, our kids spent some time with some other children, one of whom was homeschooled, and two of whom attend school–one a Chinese school and the other an American school. When my son found out that two of the girls went to school, his response was, “Too bad. You’re missing out.” Moments that make a homeschool mama proud.

First Day Back to Homeschool
204. Our homeschool room. I’m completely aware how extremely blessed we are to have a room we can dedicate to homeschooling. It’s wonderful! Since we have the top floor of the building, there are these wonderful slanted ceilings and a great window above that lets in all kinds of natural light. It’s a wonderful place to spend the day.
205. My wonderful husband. I can’t think about our lovely homeschool room and not give kudos to JavaMan for finding the best apartment ever. People expressed concern that he was apartment-hunting alone, but I had every confidence he’d do an amazing job. I was not disappointed. 204. My wonderful children. I was fighting the sniffles today–probably a result of getting a little too cold running errands the other day–so my son tucked me in and rallied the troops. Everyone settled down well and went right to sleep, and I put in at least four hours of sleep before wakened by Sprout. I love them all.
206.   Pajama day. It was really cold out when we woke up this morning, and the apartment was really cold too. We declared it a pajama day and stayed cozy all day long. We went nowhere and did nothing but homeschool and eat–all in the cozy room upstairs with the heater. Some days are like that around here. It’s homeschool perk.
207.  The promise of sunshine. No matter how bad it looks, things can change. Though the wind has been howling around the house for a day with rain, and at one point sleet, fell from the sky all day long. The sun is supposed to be out in the morning and will warm the house up again.
208.  People’s prayers. In yesterday’s post I vented a little, and a reader promised to pray for me. I know there are others who remember our family daily–JavaMan’s grandmother for one (right, Nanny?). I am never alone or forgotten.
209.   The joys of language learning. How to characterize language learning? It’s elating when you communicate your meaning, it’s exhausting when you’re constantly reaching for words in the other language, it’s fulfilling to realize you’ve taken a step beyond where you once were, and it’s humbling when a moment after someone compliments your skill, their next sentence is incomprehensible. But on balance, it’s satisfying, and little by little, I know I’m getting there.
210.   A return to routine. We’ve started back with homeschool, and I spent time on Monday working on meal plans. I’m hoping after this week that life will resume its normal order.
211.  A week of adventure. I’d planned to get back to homeschool this week, and we are, but wouldn’t you know it? It’s a school holiday in China Monday Tuesday and Wednesday. And with JavaMan being away, I promised the kids some adventure. We plan to do a few special things this week–look up some old haunts, that kind of thing–so I could keep their minds off his absence. We stayed inside for the nasty weather on Monday, but starting Tuesday, the adventure begins.
212.   Memories. As we’ve unpacked the things that were left here, it’s been interesting to see the things the kids remember–especially Sprout. She remembers all her little possessions, all the things about our life together, but few of the places we’ve been. But it’s been fun to hear Pumpkin and Sweetpea relive some of our memories, and remind me of some we’d forgotten.
213.   Rediscovery. You know how some parents rotate their children’s toys? We packed all ours away for almost two years and have had the joy of watching them get everything out all over again and play with it. When we moved here originally, Sprout had just turned two, so some of the things we pulled out are clearly not age appropriate now, which is a little sad, but for the most part, their rediscovery has been a joyous one.
214.   The promise of things to come. I’m in touch with the publisher of After the Snow Falls about how to get my hands on the proof copy of the print version. I don’t have an exact date yet, but the process is beginning.
215.  Fulfillment. I’m excited to see the lessons evolve for Hold the MSG. This is something I dreamed up a long time ago, and it’s exciting to see it finally come to pass.
216.  Skype and Facetime. We’re a long way from friends and family back “home.” It’s wonderful to have a way to communicate with those we love. 217.  Togetherness. Long ago, I expressed to my husband the desire for a big family. I’d read a magazine article on families and family sizes and decided that big family culture was for me. I had no idea that our path to that family would involve three miscarriages and two intercontinental moves, but all the things I desired about big family culture–the togetherness and interdependence, the focus on the family and its values and not flying off to soccer practice with one child while the other one is across town at ballet class or gynmastics–we have all that with our wonderful, wacky life. I’m thankful for what we have.
218.  Healing. The question of my wholeness after those miscarriages came up in a conversation we had with someone in the past week. Although there are moments that loss still catches me off-guard, I am confident I will see those children someday, and I have healed from the loss.
219.  Sprout’s reading. I think in all of the busy-ness I have failed to announce this, but our little girl is growing up, and she’s reading. She’s still working her way through Headsprout, and she hasn’t quite finished 100 Easy Lessons, but she’s reading and she’s spelling, and a whole new world is opening for her. I’m excited for her. Hard to imagine that when we moved here originally, she was barely talking! Especially when out of nowhere she pulls words like “hypothermia!” (Thank you, Jonathan Park.)
220.   We have been so blessed. We went into the homeschool room Monday, and all three kids found a book or a game and began to play or read on their own. Thanks to the generosity of others who passed them on, we’ve ended up with so many books we literally have our own little library. Pumpkin has made a to-read list so long I’m sure he’ll never run out of things to read, just in that one small room!

Multitudes on Monday

- Carey Clark

Finally Home

March 19, 2012 by Carey Jane Clark

Jet lag is in full force and along with the lack of sleep, the cold and the adjustments have come a range of emotions. But the overwhelming feeling from this week is one of gratitude. There are so many little things I’m grateful for. With each box I open up, I pull the lid off a memory, a regret or two, or an almost-forgotten treasure. And it has been wonderful to catch up with old friends and to make new ones.

The regrets have come in the form of the kids’ clothing. When we first left, we intended to be back much sooner. I saved dozens of items of clothing that no one will wear now–all kinds of cute outfits that will no longer fit. They’re just things, but it brings a twinge of sadness, nonetheless.

Some things have been just plain fun to open up–like our old photo albums and a bunch of clothing I left here and haven’t worn in almost two years. When we left, I was pregnant, with the expectation of being too large to wear most of my clothes for the duration of our time in Canada. After the miscarriage, I needed only the few items of clothing I had brought with me. So I recycled the same couple of pairs of jeans for most of our time there. In less than a week back here, I’ve actually worn three or four different pairs of pants. How refreshing!

And there’s the kitchen. It’s so nice to have all my own things so close at hand and get back into the routine of cooking and baking here.

This week, I’m grateful for so much:

171.  Old friends.
172.  New friends. 
173.  Speaking Mandarin. Sounds funny, but I enjoy the challenge of language learning, and I enjoy speaking Mandarin. Back at the market, I remembered just about all of my fruit and vegetable vocabulary. Just one pronunciation problem slipped me up, but I still came home with what I went to market for.
174.  My lovely new kitchen.
175.  My  “old” kitchen things. Everyone joins me, for example, in appreciation of our handy-dandy apple slicer.
176.  Fruit we haven’t tasted in a long time, like pomello and truly fresh pineapple.
177.  Buckwheat (soba) noodles. Gluten-free and so yummy!

Sprout Eats Noodles

178.  We have begun to appreciate just how well JavaMan did at finding us this apartment. Everything is close at hand and very convenient. Our old place here was great too, and we miss it a little, but it wasn’t as practical for the area we needed to locate in now.
179.  IKEA. While we lived in Toronto, we lived near IKEA and furnished our home with a number of items from the store, but while we were in Canada, we didn’t set foot in the store once. What would we buy? Certainly nothing we would want to bring back across an ocean. But our city has a store here, and for old times’ sake (and as somewhere to keep warm for a few hours), we visited the store on Saturday. We walked out without buying a thing, but we had a lovely time window shopping.
180.   Being together. JavaMan will start work soon, but it has been nice to have the time to settle in and just be together again. We were apart for three weeks. It’s good to be a family again under our own roof.
181.  Our landlord. We’ve had a couple of problems since moving in (like a water heater with only 3 minutes of hot water), and our landlord has been very responsive and cheerful about it all.
182.  Internet. We were without it for a few days while traveling and until it was hooked up on Friday. It’s easy to take it for granted, but the break from it was good too.
183.  My own cell phone. I didn’t bother to get a phone in Canada, although a few times, I wished I’d had one. Here, it’s hard to live without, and we won’t be getting a home phone. 
184.  My children. There was a pretty major disappointment just before we arrived. We were unable to locate puppy. We left him with a friend who subsequently left town, apparently without a trace. Our kids–especially Sprout–were very upset and disappointed. But they’ve warmed to their new home and rediscovering their toys and treasures, and have even begun making new friends with very few tears over what we “don’t have.”
185.  Warmth. We made a project today of getting books and games put away in the homeschool room and clearing out enough bins to consolidate a bin for each child’s clothing until the dressers and wardrobes arrive. Pumpkin took the temperature in the homeschool room at one point and declared it was 1 degree Celsius. It’s sad to realize that some people live in that kind of reality all the time, and a good lesson in appreciating just how blessed we are that we can usually say we are warm and secure.
186.  I’ve made a quilt for each of my children, and they’re all here. We were concerned about the ones that spent two winters in the south of China, since the climate is damp. A number of things are being laundered, since they smell a little musty, but by and large, things fared very well.
187.  The long-range forecast. It promises to get warmer here. It will be good to shed some layers indoors. Today I wore a fleece shirt, a long sweater and a ski vest. Comfy.
188.  Technology. There are always a few things I don’t know how to say or a question I’m not sure how to ask. Our favorite trick when buying things is to take a picture of the item with us. Today, JavaMan took a picture of tomato paste from the internet and I took his phone to the market. I returned with the item I wanted, and we had chili for lunch!
189.  Homeschool. What other lifestyle would afford our kids the flexibility we have right now? We are doing some math online with Dreambox and studying Chinese. That’s it for now, and probably until the temperature cooperates.
190.  An online community of homeschoolers. Now that there are no homeschoolers close to me, I appreciate my online buddies even more! (Thanks Jimmie for your advice!)

What are you thankful for this week?

Multitudes on Monday

 

- Carey Clark

Today is the Day!

March 12, 2012 by Carey Jane Clark

Today is the day! There is no more countdown. Tonight at 9:00 or so, we’ll be getting into a van (our stuff will be in another) and heading to the airport. What a way to begin a day, with so much expectancy. But any day can begin that way. Wouldn’t it be wonderful to wake up every morning and think “something good is going to happen to me today?”

In a way, that’s what recognizing one’s blessings does. You start to see that every day holds hidden surprises. God’s smiles wait around every corner. Every day holds something we can receive with joy and know that we are blessed.

This week, along with many others who count their gifts to 1000 at Ann Voskamp’s beautiful blog, I am particularly thankful for these gifts:

160.  Today is the day!
161.  On Wednesday, I will see JavaMan again!
162.  Our kitchen items and bedding arrived at safely at our new apartment today/last night from the south of the country.
163.  A friend helped my husband get good deals on all the moving, and we are under budget for all our moving expenses, even with one or two extra bins arriving from Canada.
164.  Our children as excited about today as I am.
165.  I finally fit everything in the bins!
166.  I did not have to stay up all night on our final sleep in Canada. I had a good rest going into this trip
167.  It seems like every trip I have a last-minute project or two to finish up. They’re almost all done. The binding on Sprout’s quilt is finished, shrink-wrapped in a Space Bag and crammed into our luggage. (It distressed her a little to see it squished like that, so we had to demonstrate the re-inflation process. It’s always fun to watch that anyway.)
168.  Another last-minute project is complete: I had been knitting a purse for Sprout (she didn’t want a scarf and hat like the other two). It’s ready for the trip, and I have something new on my knitting needles to keep me busy on the plane.
169.  I am holding on to my optimism. I still think there’s actually a chance I’ll have time to do knitting on the plane.
170.  Sweetpea spotted the first of the robins here the other day. I love spring in Canada, but I am just as excited to be spending it in China.

171.  I am continually thankful for my parents, who helped me solve the bin puzzle over the weekend. I was starting to kind of lose it with the pressure, but they stood by to help me. If nothing else, it was good to have the company.
172.  I am also thankful that my parents are on hand to take us to the airport. They will be departing shortly thereafter for the sunny south, and they will be taking a rest that’s probably much-needed after the longer-than-anticipated invasion and occupation of the Clark family.
173.   It feels so good to be at the beginning of something. I have high hopes for my husband’s business efforts in China, and for our language learning as a family. We are truly on an adventure.
174.   I am and thrilled for my husband that he has been so successful already. I’m especially thankful that he feels that his language-learning efforts are paying off, and he is understanding far more of what’s going on around him.
175.   I am starting to see results for my efforts at getting back to exercise.
176.   JavaMan tells me the new apartment is at the top of a hill, and of course, it is on the fourth floor and there are no elevators. We also have no car while there. So my efforts at keeping fit are about to have help!
177.   Had a chance to connect with friends this week and follow up with other people’s blessings.
178.  My wonderful mother made up two batches of homemade gluten-free bread mix for me to get started on when we arrive in China, saving me a lot of work, once I locate my bread pans!
179.  I think I remembered just about everything. Almost all of my to-do list has little checkmarks.

What are you expecting today?

Multitudes on Monday

- Carey Clark

Oh Canada!

March 5, 2012 by Carey Jane Clark

One week from today we will be at the airport, checking in. There is still much to be done, but my list is slowly dwindling. Just a few moments ago, I finished sewing the binding on Sprout’s quilt–a project I started when we spent the fall in Saskatchewan almost a year and a half ago. We have fond memories of that place, our new friends there, and the beautiful scenery. It holds a very special place in our hearts.

Silo

 

Bridge

So today, I’m reminded to be thankful of all the little things we love about life in Canada–things we won’t be able to experience for perhaps another two years or so, if things go as we plan. I’m thankful for:

140.  apple cider
141.  fireplaces
142.  the crunch of fall leaves or winter snow
143.  fall colours
144.  deep snow
145.  grass between my toes
146.  friendship
147.  being able to understand (mostly) everything I hear and read
148.  libraries
149.  organic produce
150.  Thai food
151.  family just a drive away
152.  fast, unblocked internet
153.  lakes
154.  the right of way for pedestrians
155.  Christmastime
156.  Smartfood
157.  real nature, close by
158.  berries
159. eBay (I know, how shallow of me)

When we left China in the summer of 2010, we never dreamt we would have such a long stay here, but through all the the months of wondering when we would go “home” again, these are blessings I’ve drawn around me and comforted myself with. They are nothing I can’t live without, but they were a reminder of how blessed I have been, even when it feels as though everything is not as it should be.

Multitudes on Monday

- Carey Clark

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